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weird little blog about the love of my life, 
for reading as always
on december 21st, i went to the beach. i was so happy then, thinking about my new boyfriend, we had just said “i love you” for the first time. my heart beamed with joy at the thought of him, the thought of finally having someone to give my heart to.
that was the first time i stared at the waves. i stared at the waves every saturday.
the day after he broke up with me was a saturday. so i went and stared at the waves, i wasn’t happy like i was nearly 2 months ago, but the beach understood what i was feeling.
i continued my saturday ritual, it was my celebration of me. no one but the waves could understand my thoughts, i had fallen in love with the beach.
even before december 21st, i’d go to the seaside everyday in the summer. i think of 8yo me screaming at the waves to crash louder, to give me more and more with pride. the seaside knew me before i knew myself, before i had even decided my favourite colour was pink because of peppa pig and that i loved kittens more than anything.
it was a saturday when my dad brought out a campfire, and all my cousins and i roasted marshmallows as the sea swallowed my sadness.
yesterday was a saturday, and it was too hot to go out and watch the waves, but i still stared through the big window in the dining room, whispering, “i love you”. saturdays will always be my favourite day, because that’s when i met the sea.
hiii my 5 followers
deep blog ahead, you have been warned!
i'm not sure how anyone could forget someone like you. there were no words to describe you, handsome? funny? interesting? maybe magical, since the grip you had on my heart was similar to a spell. but to be fair and honest, you were just average. the first "average" who would pay attention to me, who could grasp my thoughts and dissect them as if they were simple.
we weren't something special, not star crossed lovers, not soulmates. you are just a guy i dated. the only guy i've dated. i haven't been able to really CRUSH on anyone since you've been gone. it's not the same obsessive feeling i'd get before, i know that should be good; but it really hasn't been.
i've been focusing on myself, learning things about me that you don't know, creating someone new; though she's been with me the whole time. the night you broke up with me, i put on some music. i wasn't sad, i wasn't very happier either. i put on the generated new music mix that apple makes for you every week, and what came out of my phone's speaker was something beautiful. vivica by jack off jill played, it was the most beautiful song i have ever heard.
i went to sleep, not knowing how important that tiny moment would be. on valentine's day, i finished the bell jar. i started to write poetry, i made new friends. i am a new girl, the girl you must never know. i listen to my music, i do my dumb dances in the mirror, i still think of you when i play radiohead.
because the truth is, it is impossible to forget someone. a part of them will always be with you, but it doesn't mean that part consumes you. it means to be a mosaic of everyone you have ever met, and the person you long to forget so badly is just a tiny shard of glass in your mosaic. it's now may 12th, you left me in january of last year. i'll think about you now, without longing.
hiii my 5 followers
i have been so busy lately, school has been keeping me on my toes for sure!!
i am being punished as of right now and for two weeks! 
on may 21st i finish school
i'm so excited for summer, swimming in the seaside by my family home is all i long for.
it's really late at the moment, i am so sleeeeepy. tmrw i have school, i will keep working on my website during it.
i'm so happy with how it's turning out, i love my blog page but it feels a little empty.
anyways that's my little blog post for today!! for reading
some stamps for you: 
hellooo my 4 followers,
i got SICK :c i am much much much better now and im ready to continue on the website #yay
i have sorta decided what i wanna make my shrines about. i still havent got much motivation though *sigh*. ive become so much better at coding though and im so happy about that.
anyways thats today's entry, i will see you next time <3
hiiiii people,
i have like NO motivation to make a shrine atm so im gonna make a sims4 page for my sims4 stuff!!
i love making sims so much, maybe i'll share some of my builds here someday.
hiiiii my one follower,
okay so id like to make some shrines for my favorite games. im just excited, tbh im making this website more for myself since theres alot of scary stuff happening in the world and i need a place to be silly :c
sooo to sum everything up im making a page dedicated to games, books, shows, everything i love basically!! thanks for readingggg ily byebye <3
hiiiii this is my blog :D
i finally made one and im so happy... ive been wanting to do this for a while
this is gonna be like my little internet diary where i can yap and post cute stamps!!